BOOK THE FOURTH: A TURNING
Chapter 11: Effect Is Given to the Dolls' Dressmaker's Discovery (continued)
'The best thing you can do, to leave me with a broken heart?'
'I don't mean that, my dear girl. I was not thinking of that. What I
was thinking of was this. Out of your compassion for me, in this
maimed and broken state, you make so much of me--you think so
well of me--you love me so dearly.'
'Heaven knows I love you dearly!'
'And Heaven knows I prize it! Well. If I live, you'll find me out.'
'I shall find out that my husband has a mine of purpose and energy,
and will turn it to the best account?'
'I hope so, dearest Lizzie,' said Eugene, wistfully, and yet
somewhat whimsically. 'I hope so. But I can't summon the vanity
to think so. How can I think so, looking back on such a trifiling
wasted youth as mine! I humbly hope it; but I daren't believe it.
There is a sharp misgiving in my conscience that if I were to live, I
should disappoint your good opinion and my own--and that I ought
to die, my dear!'