| 42. TAMERLANE KIND solace in a dying hour!
Such, father, is not (now) my theme -
 I will not madly deem that power
 Of Earth may shrive me of the sin
 Unearthly pride hath revell'd in -
 I have no time to dote or dream:
 You call it hope - that fire of fire!
 It is but agony of desire:
 If I can hope - Oh God! I can -
 Its fount is holier - more divine -
 I would not call thee fool, old man,
 But such is not a gift of thine.
 
 Know thou the secret of a spirit
Bow'd from its wild pride into shame.
 O! yearning heart! I did inherit
 Thy withering portion with the fame,
 The searing glory which hath shone
 Amid the jewels of my throne,
 Halo of Hell! and with a pain
 Not Hell shall make me fear again -
 O! craving heart, for the lost flowers
 And sunshine of my summer hours!
 Th' undying voice of that dead time,
 With its interminable chime,
 Rings, in the spirit of a spell,
 Upon thy emptiness - a knell.
 
 I have not always been as now:
The fever'd diadem on my brow
 I claim'd and won usurpingly -
 Hath not the same fierce heirdom given
 Rome to the Caesar - this to me?
 The heritage of a kingly mind,
 And a proud spirit which hath striven
 Triumphantly with human kind.
 
 On mountain soil I first drew life:
The mists of the Taglay have shed
 Nightly their dews upon my head,
 And, I believe, the winged strife
 And tumult of the headlong air
 Have nestled in my very hair.
 
 So late from Heaven - that dew - it fell
(Mid dreams of an unholy night)
 Upon me - with the touch of Hell,
 While the red flashing of the light
 From clouds that hung, like banners, o'er,
 Appeared to my half-closing eye
 The pageantry of monarchy,
 And the deep trumpet-thunder's roar
 Came hurriedly upon me, telling
 Of human battle, where my voice,
 My own voice, silly child! - was swelling
 (O! how my spirit would rejoice,
 And leap within me at the cry)
 The battle-cry of Victory!
 
 The rain came down upon my head
Unshelter'd - and the heavy wind
 Was giantlike - so thou, my mind! -
 It was but man, I thought, who shed
 Laurels upon me: and the rush -
 The torrent of the chilly air
 Gurgled within my ear the crush
 Of empires - with the captive's prayer -
 The hum of suiters - and the tone
 Of flattery 'round a sovereign's throne.
 
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